It never ceases to amaze me how many life lessons have their parallels on the yoga mat. During class this bright and wintery morning, I was working into Halasana, or plow, an asana I find extremely challenging. As a runner, I have very tight hamstrings, and feeling my neck, shoulders, and throat constricted - without being able to fully stretch my legs - is usually nearly too much too bear. I generally start to panic, which, of course, makes everything that much more difficult.
This morning, however, as I felt the usual bits of anxiety begin to surge, I was reminded of something my coach suggested to me during yesterday's session. In order to start to create a business, she said, you have to acknowledge that you simply don't know everything.
The context: I'm a perfectionist. I'm accustomed to being good at whatever I attempt. I don't mean that to sound boastful, it's more that I set high standards for myself and I work really hard to reach those self-imposed set points. And usually, as a result, I hit them squarely.
Now, however, as I embark on a new journey, I've felt intermittent crisises of confidence. Fear of failure. Fear of not being good enough. Fear of putting myself out there. Fear of not knowing all the things I'm supposed to know - and feeling like I don't have the foggiest idea how to figure them out.
But as she reminded me, I don't have to know everything. And simply acknowledging that I don't know can go a long way toward easing, then going up and over, my mental blocks.
As I struggled upside down on the mat, I thought about her words. My plow pose, I thought, doesn't have to be perfect. I can rest in the space of not knowing. Within seconds, my shoulders relaxed from my ears, and I found I could breathe more deeply. Which caused my legs to ease. Which caused my forehead to smooth and my jaw to release.
I'll admit, Halasana still wasn't somewhere I'd want to stay forever. But at least for those few moments, it felt more like a place in which I could rest. Without fear.
What makes you afraid? What steps do you take to work through those fears?
[Add: Must be something in the air - today I saw this at a blog called Flying Solo; then an e-newsletter arrived, proclaiming the self-help classic "Feel The Fear: And Do It Anyway" as Book of the Month.]